I decided I would stop worrying this year, but I started it out in a full-blown worry fest. Worrying about leaving NB (because of a huge snowstorm), worrying about some friends I don't see often, worrying about getting back on time, worrying about finding a new roommate. We got home at 6.30am. I lied down in my bed and said to myself 'all you have to do right now is sleep, that's all you need to do' a few seconds later I fell asleep.
How will I stop worrying? Eating well (helping my mood and my budget), swimming when I can, doing my schoolwork for real, and other big things like learning to accept myself, following my heart, taking time for myself, and doing things out of love. If love can be my motivation behind everything I do, then wouldn't it be much easier to live happily? If you do everything with love, then you could never be disappointed or unsatisfied with your activities. I anticipate this will be a very difficult challenge, probably more difficult than being present.
I feel up for the challenge right now, after all, last night I made my very first Julia Child meal. It was awesome. It'll be even more awesome when I begin to understand the logic behind cooking and I can make the recipes from memory.
I want to grow! I want to grow out of love and into love! La-la-la-la-love!
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