Theory vs. Practice

I went skating with P on saturday. We met up at 3, joined Lé and Andrw at Parc Lafontaine, and skated for about an hour. The ice wasn't perfect, but it was fun anyway. We had some hot chocolate at Andrw's, went home, made supper, watched Atonement, and I was ready for bed. We went to bed around 1.30am and I feel asleep instantly. We set the alarm for 9am because we wanted to go see Up in the Air at 12.30. The alarm rang, but we didn't get up. I got out of bed at 11.45 and did a bit of work on the computer. I decided to wake P up around 1 because even though we wouldn't go see the movie, our time would be limited since he worked that afternoon. We decided to watch a Planet Earth documentary thing, but the dvd wasn't working. P spent about 30 minutes trying to fix it, and when I finaly said, 'let's forget it', he replied, 'yeah I have to leave in 15 minutes anyway'.. my heart sunk to the bottom of my stomach. I felt a pretty big sense of disappointment. It wasn't really because he spent the time trying to fix the dvd, but probably because I didn't say anything like 'okay forget it, let's just snuggle' before it was too late.

I decided last week that I wouldn't have any expectations about this new scheduling situation, because it simply can't be helped and it's really not the end of the world, but clearly I had some lurking in there somewhere. I don't want to make a big deal out of this, because adding drama to this situation is not going to help me or it. There are a few words I need to remember:

"Love has nothing to do with what you're expecting to get, only what you're expecting to give, which is everything." - Katharine Hepburn

In other news, I went to my first class (and my final undergraduate class) and it was really great. Profs with energy make it all worthwhile. I think I'm going to try really hard to do well in this class -- especially since it's in french and it takes twice the effort for me to learn in french. I'm excited to start working on it.

Tomorrow: Pool time!