I had been looking for my compassion for a few days now, and i finally found it.
I realized everything that's going on with P is putting a lot of pressure on me. I've decided to stop thinking about it for a few days and let the answer come to me when i'm ready.
We had dinner last night and everything felt fine. Not superb, obviously, but generally good.
There's also part of me which wants to at least enjoy a little bit of the fact that he's now day-shift, and what it would be like to have a relationship on a normal schedule.
I deserve that. I want to know what it feels like. And I want to stop pressuring myself to make a decision because it's not making it any easier on me.
Just go with the flow. New mantra.
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Yeah, and have fun. Not everything has to be super serious... My old mantra in life.
It seems like only you think you're in a serious relationship. He's just there to keep you company.
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