Modern Love

Funny how when we're sad, the kind of sadness that weighs in your belly, the first thing that goes is our desire to eat. I'm full on sadness.

I'm being over dramatic, but the thing is I have a little ache in my heart to see P and he's too busy. Not only is he too busy, he's happy being busy. He said he misses me, but he's okay with having seen me for 6 hours total last week. He doesn't see that as a crappy situation.

What's also crappy is that I leave the conversation feeling demanding for wanting to see him twice per week.

He worked on a film set from friday to monday. I'm super happy that he was able to, given that he hasn't had the chance all summer. I'm happy to see him so enthusiastic and energetic. I guess I just didn't realize I would become second potatoe so soon.

I know filmmaking is his passion. I love that it is. I know he's not the type to let anything step in the way of his dream. I think I may not have realized what that meant...