Red flags. Big, bright, red flags. Alarms. Piercing, persistant alarms. These are the things I sometimes see and hear when I think of Vncnt. In this campaign... when ever we talk, it's about the campaign. No 'how are you?', 'how's school?', 'what have you been doing?'... just business. Many, many thank yous... but they're business.
I know the guy's focused. I know he's got ambition, persistance and discipline, but come on! Maybe we disagree on what we consider fun.
I suppose with all the energy I'm putting into this, and all the pressure I'm putting on myself not to disappoint him, I expect something. Perhaps this is my own problem. Doing something for someone, and expecting something out of them...
Maybe I'm just in a bad mood, but I feel like everything revolves around him now. I feel like sometimes he does only things that make him the center... My gut says, "Adèle, you don't like people like that; people like that are toxic"... these are the thoughts that sound alarms...
Maybe I shouldn't have gotten involved in this project. I feel like it's too late to backout. It's not even backing out that I want, it's not having to feel like his living agenda, or secretary or go-to person..
Simultaneously, I feel like in this situation, taking the highroad (which I am a huge fan of) means, sticking to it, going full force, and doing really well. After that, it's all up in the air... Let's just say that right now I don't feel motivated enough to take the high (often harder) road...
There's too many ... in this post. That's never a good sign.
Inside my head: 'just let it go, let it go, let it go. Just let it go.'
1 comment:
I disagree. I think taking the high road in this case means dropping him like a can of Cheez Whiz.
You're being taken for a ride, and not in a good way. It feels like it's all about him because it is all about him. You're just the stiletto in his political runway. (Worst analogy ever.)
C'mon Adele, you can do better than an egocentric charmer with a heart of coal! Demand goodness and ye shall receive! It's not your job to enlighten him -- it doesn't matter if he's consciously or unconsciously oblivious. Either way, he plays the fool so everyone else can fall in line.
There is no virtue in blind devotion.
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