I had supper with a certain someone tonight. Everything feels so effortless and simple at times, then so unbearably complicated at others. On my bike ride to work this morning, it struck me that I was still bummed out he didn't come out the night before to see off Mchl. I had to repeat to myself for several blocks "If you love something, let it go, just let it go.. let it go.. let it go.." The zen state I had attained during the summer is now being challenged. This stupid motto is the only thing keeping me sane... Just let it go. Tonight was very pleasant, but I think that's partly due to the cute kitty...
I'm now working on taking myself lightly and emanating open-ness. I think this will be key to my academic success. It seems obvious that a mind can think more clearly when it's not always clouded by dramatic bullshit. But dramatic bullshit is so tempting.. Narcissism will be the end of me.
I'm in the process of cleaning the shit out of my space. I've got to get rid of excess baggage. Going to school has given me renewed sense of organization and prioritization.I'm also pretty pumped about participating in my classes. I actually spoke (without being called on) on several occasions in my Film Script Analysis class. At first I was somewhat put off by the prof because she seemed to know so many faces (which to me sounds little 'you're invisible' bells in my head) but after we went around the room introducing ourselves, she remembered everyone's names. Even mine! It felt like she really cared about our opinions, and what we had to say. It was a great feeling. I know she remembered everyone, but I'm so often the ONE they forget that it just felt nice to be in the same memory box as everyone else.
My eye has yet to catch any real film friend prospects, but at this point I'm somewhat indifferent about it.
Adrl just dropped by to invite me to a LBCL party which is apparently host to 'all your friends!' Gotta love the dude for trying. My mind thought 'yeah you could go', my body said 'you're pretty tired dudette, you should hit the sack' and my vanity said 'your hair looks like crap, forget it'.. And now I'm here finishing this post.In the meantime, nothin' but pools on the brain.. eco-pools. I'm not sure how I feel about them.
(TheDailyGreen.com)
As with most other things in life, I prefer the minimalist (read: pretentious) option. My second motto, which compliments my first, elaborates this preference perfectly: Less is More.
Les Bains des Docks (France) designed by Jean Nouvel
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