It started harmlessly enough, but then turned a little bit strange. She wanted to know what I really thought of P's mom, because she has interacted with her over the many years she's been around and over that period of time, has formulated her own views. The way I see it, his Mama is very complicated to me. So generous and giving, but sometimes it seems to veil high expectations which often creates high pressure situations. I'm pretty easy going with her. I don't have a strong personality in the same way that this girl does, so I suppose that makes things easier for me. I usually feel like because she does so much for me, I should basically do whatever she wants me to do. She never asks for the Moon or anything, but maybe just a higher level of energy than I usually float on.
Since P and I are still in a young relationship, this kind of thing can go on and on as she pleases. I suppose the tricky part comes (as with anyone) when kids enter the picture. I'd be curious to see how that plays out, should it ever happen.
But the weird thing that made me want to post today is this thing the girl said: "You know, it seems like P's really in it with you. The relationship will only end if you decide it has to." Or something to this effect.
I really don't know how to interpret this. I'm not sure I believe it. But frankly, I just find it a really weird thing to say! So much so that I'm not really sure how I feel about the statement.
Am I somehow supposed to be happy? Am I supposed to feel in control?
It's just too weird. It's like saying to someone that they've succeeded in whipping their boyfriend. That their boyfriend is somehow their property now.
I don't want to whip anyone, or to own anyone. Or to be whipped or owned.
In other news: a children's book about Audrey Hepburn -- how about that!
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