Four Day Weekend

I was walking from P's place to the metro with a hypersensitivity to sound and smell. The city is so smelly and noisy! Even here, in my bedroom in a quiet neighbourhood, is the sound of some electrical tool brrrr-ing from the alley.

I just spent the most wonderful weekend with P. After a few weeks of feeling mildly disconnected this weekend fixed all that. It also helped that I divulged my insecurities to him last friday. I said I felt a little alone lately. This is obviously not only related to him. I'm trying to be less 'dependant' on friends too.. which means I talk to them less, and see them less, which is hard, to say the least. But I have to stop making them be my safety net and my security blanket all the time (sometimes is okay, of course). After I told him, he immediately called me and we talked about it. I think the issue is more that i'm stressed about school, loans, and all that stuff (still no answer). In reality, I just want someone to sweep all this stuff off my hands and tell me everything will be okay, but I know things don't work that way.

I also have a lingering feeling that being at Mcgill now, and getting 20 emails per day, i'm going to miss something, the key to my future success. I used to check my email obsessively -- now I avoid it at all cost.

I'm looking into a yoga class and I love not having class on tuesdays.

I haven't been spending so much time on blogs, so no interesting pictures...