Don't respond to this. It's my brain talking.

You know when you're holding something that you were going to set down, but as you're setting it down it falls out of your hands before you were ready? Sometimes it breaks and sometimes it just makes a loud noise.

I feel like that right now. I feel like i'm falling in love, but I wasn't ready for that to happen yet. Because this time it's different and usually when i fall in love it's all dramatic and life changing. This time it's calm and progressive, but even so, I feel like i've started down that road..

The best thing that could happen is that P would tell me he is too.. then I wouldn't feel scared or unprepared like I do.

That must be what falling in love feels like.